March 2011
2 posts
Where are you
I really need my family together. Prayer
And this is what it's become
I finally had my daughter, but her dad and I aren’t together anymore. Funny how things work out. One minute we’re so happy, the excitement of having Sophia, the joy of being engaged, and the eagerness of being together forever with our family. Then the next everything withering away, our love, our excitement, our hopes, and our dreams. After it all, our life before seemed like only a...
May 2010
4 posts
No regrets....
:D
Ha the baby will not stop moving today:)
Finding out what the baby is in 4 weeks, im pretty excited…even though it didnt seem like i was yesterday…I was just fighting my own demons.
What an Adventure
HA! pregnancy isn’t some beautiful experience like every mother claims it to be…well not for me at least. Everyday gets harder for me to even stay content. i cant eat anything, I’m in and out of the hospital, and depressions getting the best of me, but i try, i try for us to stay strong, even though i know i cant. Everything’s getting so much harder. My relationship...
March 2010
12 posts
maybe.....it'll work....maybe.
i can honestly say now...im highly discontent with...
Theres a glitch in the tide
fuck it fuck it fuck itttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Morning you decieving ass world!
“Sometimes when I say I’m okay, I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me...”
– (via sheeezthebieetch) (via marlyplumberry)
“If you be my star
I’ll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come...”
Please give me the strength....
Back to my old ways to get it done
“It must be buried under the heart
That makes this pace consistent....”
Square One!...not the best feeling
“Make your move, obvious humor,
desperate and respiratory plight.
Always on,...”
– Circa Survive
How could it be we were so secure, cause nothing...
STOP. REWIND!!!!!
Mmmmm back on this now. Eli was right this always helps. So Franny. things were perfect. he said he’s happy this time..very happy. these past couple of days have made me question his happiness. He told my friend that we have a fucked up relationship….When that was the futhest idea from my mind, i guess i know now what he thinks of us. We are yet again doing the same dance. I dont...
January 2010
10 posts
Road Block
We got back together. i was so happy…although he, well yeah…but ever since he did that one something. i cant stop thinking about if he’ll start having eyes for another girl. he flirts alot with other girls. whether he knows it or not, he does it. i cant help but to feel the way i feel. but im going to do this differently than he did. im not going to let my insecurities ruin us. i...
i woke up and my boy wasnt by my side
idk why im taking this so hard, its like hwen he left my whole life came crashing down. i feel completely sick:/. i didnt even cry over kaleb this much. then again i wasnt in love. i cant believe i just let things get like this….
mikeypizzle:
Seven Years (acoustic demo) by...
A New
i have a whirlwind or emotions and thoughts inside me. i wanna whipe my slate clean, and let everyone go….start over…but idk. my heart hurts, i cant ever seem to get my relationships right. The one time i think things will work, they end terribly…im pretty sure im at fault for it. i just dont understand why i wasnt good enough..sadly to say, id change for him. i was in...
Karma
Its true..what goes around, comes around. This is what i get for cheating on kaleb:(
Awkward Setting
Francisco picked me up from school today. It was uhh…interesting. I cried before i got in his car, to just let it out before we hungout. I really hate crying in front of people. Especially him. When we got to my house, things were a bit weird..I was just real pissed that things got like this. Anywho he started playing around with me…things were fine, fuck! but all the sudden i started...
2 down, a billion more till i get it right.
Another one down
Francisco….thats the name of the last one. Seems like i cant ever keep someone in my life..For a long time i thought i was never gonna get over kaleb, that i was madly in love. It was all false love, i just loved the idea of him being mine. But Francisco he changed it all for me. Those two month were amazing. I fell in love..For real this time. i knew it was real, he gave me this safe,...
November 2009
6 posts
N*E*R*D - You Know What
ohlivyuhuxtable:
Coconut Records - “West Coast”
...
To love somebody who doesn’t love you, Is like going to a temple And worshipping the behind Of a wooden statue … Of a hungry devil.
Im A Tease?!
I let myself do the things we usually do, but i promised myself i would let it go futher. Cause by doing so, my feelings for you grow, i now see nothings going to come out of what we’re doing now, so why punish myself?
Sure “we’re friends”, and im okay with that…but friends dont have sex, and as long as we still hold that title, it wont happen….It wouldnt be...
Temporary Insanity
What just happened? Did you kiss me? Cause that’s a place we’ve never been until now And I don’t know how it’s gonna be after this Do we pretend these feelings don’t exist at all Or do we fall? My confusion shows whenever you get so close I stumble, I stutter, forget what to say I’m nervous, I wonder why I’m acting this way [Chorus] It’s temporary...
October 2009
44 posts
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
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stephaniemattel:
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
yeah what about you?
ehhh, idkkk….i guess if u do then i will bro.
sweett, im bringin vicky and muh bestfrannn stevennn… ps dont bring kalab lmao ur such a...
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
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stephaniemattel:
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
yeah what about you?
ehhh, idkkk….i guess if u do then i will bro.
sweett, im bringin vicky and muh bestfrannn stevennn… ps dont bring kalab lmao ur such a tard
oh awesome!….haha, bring...
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
yeah what about you?
ehhh, idkkk….i guess if u do then i will bro.
sweett, im bringin vicky and muh bestfrannn stevennn… ps dont bring kalab lmao ur such a tard
oh awesome!….haha, bring kaleb?…ha we arent even talking, hes too...
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
yeah what about you?
ehhh, idkkk….i guess if u do then i will bro.
sweett, im bringin vicky and muh bestfrannn stevennn… ps dont bring kalab lmao ur such a tard
oh awesome!….haha, bring kaleb?…ha we arent even talking, hes too busy taking his ex ashley...
thisisastickup:
stephaniemattel:
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
yeah what about you?
ehhh, idkkk….i guess if u do then i will bro.
ELI!!
if matts doin his thing, are you gonna go?
wolfsuit:
Ben Kweller - Until I Die
I listen to...
my carrr!!!!!!!!
my poppa said he gonna get it fixed ASAP(:
Baby issues.
Sometimes, im glad i did what i did, because kaleb and i aren’t together anymore, and who knows how things would have ended up…
but at the same time, that was my baby, that was our baby….i-idk..
i have conflicting feelings about this….
exbestfriend:
Etta James - I’d Rather Go Blind
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adinshea:
kyndev:
thumbswithhands:
Iron...
I hate how much i love you.
Its been 5 or 6 months now. I can get myself to let him go, i just cant. I put everything i had into him. I know i did wrong sometimes, but i never cheated, and i never lied…i loved him unconditionally, and never let him think otherwise. Now that’s its over, my actions and feeling toward him haven’t changed, but his have. He’s isn’t the nicest to me, he takes...
Sainthood
This album is fucking genius!
kaleb kaleb
That boy That boy.
Golllllyy, as much as i wanna dislike him, he makes me completely happy, i love the heck ouutttttaaa him. Im glad he loves me, i think knowing that gets me through my days, i know that sound lame as fuck. But when you go through things like we did…Its what matters. Im making peace with the the being friends thing..Althougggh, doing stuff together doesnt help much, oh...
thisisastickup:
sexmusic:
let’s make out //...
Growing Up
i have this friend who’s having issues with a guy…He’s not a one girl kinda guy..
she’s losing hope in them getting back together even though he reassures her that he wants to be with her. I know he’ll grow out of it though, he’s a kid, everyone grows up eventually.
All that got me thinking about myself. When i was his age, i wasn’t a a one guy type of...