Where are you

I really need my family together. Prayer

And this is what it’s become

I finally had my daughter, but her dad and I aren’t together anymore. Funny how things work out. One minute we’re so happy, the excitement of having Sophia, the joy of being engaged, and the eagerness of being together forever with our family. Then the next everything withering away, our love, our excitement, our hopes, and our dreams. After it all, our life before seemed like only a dream. But I guess that’s life. He now has a girlfriend, who I think he’s happy with, and I’m living only for my daughter. I’ll always love him, he was my real first love. I’ll never forget all the beautiful things he did for me. I love you franny. And of he could ever find it in his heart to give me one last chance, I’d make him proud enough to call me his.

No regrets….

:D

Ha the baby will not stop moving today:)

Finding out what the baby is in 4 weeks, im pretty excited…even though it didnt seem like i was yesterday…I was just fighting my own demons.

What an Adventure

HA! pregnancy isn’t some beautiful experience like every mother claims it to be…well not for me at least. Everyday gets harder for me to even stay content. i cant eat anything, I’m in and out of the hospital, and depressions getting the best of me, but i try, i try for us to stay strong, even though i know i cant. Everything’s getting so much harder. My relationship doesn’t really seem to be going anywhere but down. Moving in together and getting married is furthest from my mind now. My new focus is making what me and Francisco have stable enough to bring a baby into. And i seem to continue second guessing myself on the decision I made. I’m happy i have it and i look forward to holding my baby in my arms..But was it the right choice. I don’t know. I want to give up…I’m tired.

maybe…..it’ll work….maybe.

i can honestly say now…im highly discontent with my life

Theres a glitch in the tide

fuck it fuck it fuck itttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Morning you decieving ass world!